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♥ Ryn Azrynne
Because none of it was ever worth the risk. But you are the only exception. And I'm on my way to believing. Oh yes I'm on my way to believing. |
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no you won't take away my pride, not this time.
i am blasting decode on repeat for the 8th time. lame, i know. but i simply love her hair like that at decode's videoclip.so anyway, i been working my ass off so far. i have no time for updates and stuff. hectic hectic hectic. but i'll definitely chuck in some time for myself. anyway, life has been pretty boring but so far i think i am doing well, albeit slowly. but that's where the phrase slow and steady comes in right? last night was so tiring i felt like throwing in the towel at the last minute after realising my feet ached and my eyes were droopy and my back was in pain. i was working from 9am all the way til 11pm. yeah, 2 jobs. morning job and a huge huge huge function at the Ritz Carlton at night. yucks. if this carries on, i will probably be half dead. but i really need to start saving for 2 huge things. macbook and trip to japan with min. she promised to go with only me. hehe will be an awesome trip. ohwell it is past 10pm and i need to be up early as tomorrow will be a really really really busy day. loads of things to do. yucks. i am beginning to sound like a career woman, which is something i don't really like. but i guess i should consider myself lucky. because there are alot of people out there who are jobless. hmm... and you. you know who you are mister. i miss you. i just wish things weren't as complicated as it was or already is. i am already happy enough to know that you feel the same way as i do. it's good that you are willing to work hard to salvage something for us. ok enough already. it's late. i need sleep. yes, lots of sleep. goodnight world... - ryn i got a secret but doesn't everyone?
been working my ass off. hence the blog entry delay.urgh. i am disgusted with myself. i don't even have a proper social life now. meet friends also halfway or along the way or just 1hr thing. wednesday maybe i am meeting ex classmates. woots. seriously. everyone changed. haha. then monday...meeting min bbygirl for icecream. she's someone who makes the pain go away. no...seriously. she's one huge confidence booster. in terms of every single thing in my life. i love her. having her back in my life is so wonderful. <3 so anyway, been doing some DJ-ing. it is DAMN HARD. not as easy as it sounds. mashups and remixes and mixtapes. like wow. yes, wow. so far things has been going smooth albeit slowly but i am getting better or recovering from my emotional crap that i had been going through. life is painful and cruel but i think it is up to us to make the ride abit smoother. i feel better, in terms of everything. there is one thing i wish for in life. to be a better person. for God. for mum. for dad. for brothers. for friends. for loved ones. for me. i would also like to be stronger. to be able to walk with my head held high instead of always being down and looked down upon, because since my past til now, i am always this someone who is just someone in the eyes of everyone. i want to be someone whom people will look up to. not just someone. nor anyone. i want my loved ones especially parents to realised that i am the best daughter they could ever have. but sometimes i feel that they think i am never enough. and being "not enough" sucks. alot. and there i go again. i hate writing things down be it in my blog or in my diary and everything from deep inside my heart just pours out. ok. stop. on a lighter note, i love being myself when i am alone. nice feeling to peel off that mask i have on when i am with others. haha. ok it's late. very late. sleep time. work tomorrow. goodnight world. xoxo i miss him, alot. - ryn dedicated
 well well well... look what the cat dragged in...an entry about family and bestfriends =D ok. apologies to daily readers, you girls know who you are. oh sorry and some guys too. families...are something everyone needs. they will and always will be half of a human. sometimes spaces are something everyone needs too. too much of something is bad. the word rebel comes to mind. when a bird has or have been caged too long...it will wait til the owner of the cage forgot to lock it and just burst through. then everyone would need to search high and low for the bird. yeah yeah so what if the bird is expensive or rare? wouldn't it be better for the owners to just say once in a while "hey look i'll let you exercise those pretty wings of yours ok? but come back in one piece." then the bird will fly here and there. it's totally up to the bird to come back right? but the bird will think "gee the owner let me fly...heck they'll let me out again soon." and finally flies back to the cage. owner comes home see expensive or rare bird safe and owner can rest easy. repeat. very give and take cycle right. apparently...maybe not in some cases. nevermind. all i can say is...let the bird rot in the cage. the bird might lay some golden eggs... roflmao hahahaha!!! so anyway, i've been busy. real busy. min i know how you feel now. can everyone say "urgh"? lol yes yes yes work does sucks, what's new. during my free time though i have been spending time with min. hey bestfriends since primary school hey...reuniting with her has been extremely beautiful, a wonderful experience. apart from the usual bestfriends like des, esa, fiza, irene, aj...but min has basically been part of that wall these days. we promised each other not to fade away again, ever...no more. lol ok here goes... i scared the hell out of fiza. i am sincerely sorry for losing it that sunday night on the phone...i am sorry baby. good to know you didn't just packed up and run. i love you for that. i must treat her to icekacang...classic hehe... let's visit cikgu faza again together ya =) ahhh des des des! train rides with you are always inevitable LOL thnks for longjohn...still cannot believe how loud i shouted when i won rock paper scissors game with you hehe i miss you hui xiansheng...kuai dian wo yao gan ni =P i love you ok? i do i do i do...i'm sorry for...you know what...help me get back earth pls? *hugs* esa!!! babygirl~ where's our boombox? teehee let's do some girl power aite? come singapore puh-lease, stay at my place ;P hahahahaha...partners!!! always baby and you know it =D i love you, many many many! irene!!! come singgy again go bugis and 313 please? LOL *huggles* you have been there. you knew who was real and who was being 2faced...you know who im talking about...thank you thank you thank you. we were tight from shadowwolf til now i totally love you. seriously. and aj...you are a legend. countless times advices and all. try and try. thank you for being you and for being there. i just wished things was different and so much easier. you know i love you, i do...like i love starbucks =D okey dokey. loooong entry yaw!!! home home home on the range! - ryn hiatus
wahhh rare for me to not blog so often... 0.0anyway if u are seeing this...goodbye bestyboy... =/ dun rly go online much now...busy with work studio singing etc etc -.- yucks... this song is stuck in my head... Sexy Bitch by Girl-Licious... it's the girl version...hotness... ooh made some awesome new friends =D oklah... bye~ *lazy mode so next blogpost will upload pics* - ryn |