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♥ Ryn Azrynne
Because none of it was ever worth the risk. But you are the only exception. And I'm on my way to believing. Oh yes I'm on my way to believing. |
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i got a secret but doesn't everyone?
been working my ass off. hence the blog entry delay.urgh. i am disgusted with myself. i don't even have a proper social life now. meet friends also halfway or along the way or just 1hr thing. wednesday maybe i am meeting ex classmates. woots. seriously. everyone changed. haha. then monday...meeting min bbygirl for icecream. she's someone who makes the pain go away. no...seriously. she's one huge confidence booster. in terms of every single thing in my life. i love her. having her back in my life is so wonderful. <3 so anyway, been doing some DJ-ing. it is DAMN HARD. not as easy as it sounds. mashups and remixes and mixtapes. like wow. yes, wow. so far things has been going smooth albeit slowly but i am getting better or recovering from my emotional crap that i had been going through. life is painful and cruel but i think it is up to us to make the ride abit smoother. i feel better, in terms of everything. there is one thing i wish for in life. to be a better person. for God. for mum. for dad. for brothers. for friends. for loved ones. for me. i would also like to be stronger. to be able to walk with my head held high instead of always being down and looked down upon, because since my past til now, i am always this someone who is just someone in the eyes of everyone. i want to be someone whom people will look up to. not just someone. nor anyone. i want my loved ones especially parents to realised that i am the best daughter they could ever have. but sometimes i feel that they think i am never enough. and being "not enough" sucks. alot. and there i go again. i hate writing things down be it in my blog or in my diary and everything from deep inside my heart just pours out. ok. stop. on a lighter note, i love being myself when i am alone. nice feeling to peel off that mask i have on when i am with others. haha. ok it's late. very late. sleep time. work tomorrow. goodnight world. xoxo i miss him, alot. - ryn |