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♥ Ryn Azrynne
Because none of it was ever worth the risk. But you are the only exception. And I'm on my way to believing. Oh yes I'm on my way to believing. |
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the real update.
thankful, lucky, beautiful, wonderful and above all happy and contented.you've got a smile that takes me to another planet nothing made sense til i saw your face time slows down whenever you're around can you feel this magic in the air? today was a fairy tale... <3 - ok so i fugured i'd better give a real update about the things that have been happening around me. =) here goes... i feel happy these days. like got no problems... well besides the random or usual ones like being lazy to wake up early or sometimes feeling sluggish to go school, i think things are going in a beautiful and wonderful positive direction. =D it is such a refreshing change from my past emo or depressed whatever down time i was facing, to my present state of mind and being all wrapped into a single word i just call HAPPY. lol lyn n fee all said i can't be too happy or else things would come crashing down and i might just go into reclusion. but i highly doubt so. i think things would stay like this and i know i'll be even happier soon. insya'Allah. all i do each day is pray and do doa that i will feel forever contented and satisfied and above all happy for what i have in life now. school is getting tougher... basically the lessons theoritically i mean. but the students and lecturers have been nothing but nice and fun! no droning ex sec sch chemistry teacher Chiang Ah Choo's voice lol everyone is being very interactive and supporting of each other. which is good, thus giving me the drive to do assignments LOL only sometimes i feel totally lazy to get ready and head out to school which is a 45mins bus ride. 1hr if traffic is bad. lol~ work is awesome also because the staffs there are all extremely nice. and no. i am still heeding mom's advice "don't trust anyone easily" yep (i don't want my drink spiked do i?) but in terms of friendliness, everyone at tanah merah country club has been super nice. even the gm of the club is very good to me. things at home are looking up. mom isn't that demanding as before. i mean usual chores needs to be done so that's ok if she does nag. but of course i am not taking mom for granted. well i do have my lazy moments... hahah sorry mom but i am trying and you know that very well =) i even get to go out meet friends too which is cool and besides i only have desmond fiza lyn uzir and certainly i dont intend to make new ones. call it "once bitten twice shy" but i'll just stick to these besties. dad on the other hand gets testy once in a while but that's to be expected... i guess parents do love their kids it's just that in dad's case he shows it in a way he believes is right. mom is awesome. i can tell her EVERYTHING but with dad i need to be tactical. but it's ok lol friends? well yeah i mentioned those fantastic 4. and they ARE fantastic ok? lol seriously. as i am typing this, lyn is actually on the way from tampines to jurong to meet me for breakfast. awesome or what? <3 so yeap all in all... EVERYTHING is coming together in a 'IT MAKES SENSE" kinda way rather than before where i always thought "life is unfair" etc etc (think emo girl sitting in corner blasting Unintended by Muse) alrighty them... i am off now. getting ready to meet lyn. the cuzin has gone to bali. hahaha she'll be back soon. HAPPY GILER AKU!!! <3 <3 <3 HOT DAMN
like a bird that flies across a clear lakelike a raindrop that glides down a window like a balloon that floats higher into the sky like a kitten prancing about with her brothers like a football that sinks into the net to score a goal like a ballistic knife that skewers 3 enemies at one go ok stop. LOL but these are just some things that makes me smile in happiness and satisfaction... hehe =) - yes i am happy. in spite of the bad and cruel events that happens in an average day to day basis, i am happy. blissfully happy. with what i have. i can simply close my eyes and drift off to a land where unicorns exists and pots of gold are waiting at the end of every rainbow. hehe... so yep school was awesome. got a distinction for my first EASY essay. damn it was easy. and i had 2 papers yesterday. which i will get the results next week. i think i'll get 2 more distinctions. hahaha... confident! =D hmmm nothing much to update. BESIDES THE FACT THAT I AM ONE HAPPY GIRL! =D byeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! H A P P Y
hahaha have to post this entry.- it's now 8pm n i got home abt an hour ago. i finally met up with des bff~ oh damn i rly miss that grandfather. n i also met rob. lol i introduced them both since they are both my only guy friends...so it wouldnt hurt to introduce them. alas! both like mouse... so quiet. i could have dropped a pin and my ultimate bet would be they would merely stare at each other. hahahaha... but they did talk to each other and all... so it was all good. =) i had claypot chicken rice at the mall's food court. initially we all met at the library since i had $6 worth of fines from not returning books lol and we wanted to have the prata at the library's cafe which was good stuff cheap and famous. but it was a full house. so yeah... and pretty rowdy with kids and their moms yelling over one another. BIG NO NO. i like having my food in a serene environment. lol so today i decided i wanted to wear my hijab aka tudung. since i am a redhead...lol... i chose to wear my red shawl gifted from... jeng jeng jeng uzir aka rob. lol at first when i met uzir he was shocked in a pleasant way that i was wearing the hijab cos he hasnt seen me in it before. but after a while he kept saying "sweet lah" hoiii rob org tk suker sweet. org suker fierce. chehhh... des on the other hand doesnt even care even i were to wear a burka. seriously. LOL but the icing on the cake was meeting des LOL totally missing my bestfriendforever like crazy... hahahahah... but he has some secrets OOOOHHH. new girlfriend. hahahaha no lah he's just into this girl and have been asking me for alot of advice about the girl. so yeah he's thanked me for waking him up to reality. LOL~ uzir is like same lahhh hahaha...the usual quiet guy. but i dunno y today rly made my day. happy like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzle!!! THANKS GUYS! I LOVE YOU BOTH SO DAMN MUCH~ meet soon k? =D ok that's it... am off to read... borrowed more books! - damn i am happy today... lol sunday's nothingness
when i look into your eyes i come alive.- sunday sunday sunday. heehee~ i feel happy today... wonder why. no absolute reason why. hmmm... oh wells. so anyway, nothing much to write about. worked last night. managed to head home early... there was seriously no one at the club. zzz... left the place at 1045pm to catch the staff transport n took the train at 11pm n managed to catch the bus home. hehehe... best night of work ever. DIDN'T EVEN SANG A SONG. cos there was no one lol school has been nothing but a bore. lecturer was well all i can say is... bland. informative yes but he doesn't interact with the students much. kinda reminds me of Chiang Ah Choo. zzz... LOL but he's planned homeworks with the students. so yeahhh yucks. hmmm maybe going later with a bunch of girls... =) alrighty... that's all. looking forward to classes this coming week =D - you're my only reason you're my only truth... i need you. riddles
the city feels clean in this time of nightjust empty streets and me are walking home to clear my mind... if this love's not meant to be if your heart's not ready to open if we make it out we'll see who is broken... and you can't blame a girl like me for being irrational and having jealousy when you walk out so freely while i have to be caged within - it's just me and Late Night Alumni today before i start getting ready for work later. sianzationnn ttm... been a few days since i last played blackops. been busy with school and i have work ltr too =( i guess my mood for enjoyment has suddenly dissipated as soon as it has flared. everyone seems to be hitting an all time low. i need to walk and find what's going on between me myself and i. just me alone. what do i really want. i question my wants and needs. sometimes i can see that my wants over rides my needs. yes there are times when my needs emerges victorious... but i keep coming to a near conclusion that just maybe, JUST MAYBE... i don't really need this afterall. as boundless and limitless as the time we may have, or it may seem we might have, but then i have this dreading idea just solidifying itself : i might have fallen into something i cannot get out of. what risks am i taking? any payoffs? ...or will it be consequences? the question i have to keep asking myself is... do i want this? here i go writing riddles. DAMN I HIDE IT GOOD, SUPERBLY WELL. STANDING OVATION FOR THIS LADY. in the month of feb...
the streets looks cleaner in the night.i wonder aimlessly looking for my purpose. please grant me the strength to look into your eyes. without having my heart stop beating. over and over again. - have started schooling =D YAY!!! haha... nothing much to update. off to bed. ciao~ - but don't you realise that you have neglected me indirectly? |