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♥ Ryn Azrynne
Because none of it was ever worth the risk. But you are the only exception. And I'm on my way to believing. Oh yes I'm on my way to believing. |
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thursday
when u feel stagnant like u have nowhere and nothing anymore in mind, what do you think of...?- ps3 is down. i have turned into a tv addict. life just got downgraded. i need the beach. soon. enough.
when you start reflecting on why love hurts, it's only cause you hurt yourself.- i realised a second too late that i'm hurting myself by being with you. i asked myself, if it's true i do love you. you know what? i cannot see the answer anymore. i think i am being blinded by how much i'm hanging on. this simple question keeps running through my head. "why?" yes, why to everything. i can't keep going on anymore if this is the case. it's like, i'm merely holding your hand because i have no other options. the need and the want to just have your hand in mine is gone. i just have no choice left because i must. my tears have left tracks permanently etched on my cheeks. from them and now from you. i wish i don't have to over react. but i have to. because if i just brushed it off and ignore the pain you give me, nothing will change. i will be just another girl to you. and i don't want that. i want to mean so much to you, you wake up thinking about my eyes the first thing in the morning, and go to sleep thinking about the smell of my hair the last thing before you sleep. the journey cannot end because i have invested too much heart and soul in the tracks i have taken. to walk back where i came from or take a detour, might just kill me. i am madly in love. i do not want to let go. because of how high i go when i see you. i do not even give a damn how hard i fall or where i fall when i've stopped flying high up there. i do not even care if you do catch my fall. all i know is that i have been where most do not wander for fear of the harsh intensity of where they might end up. the intensity of how i feel for you has over ridden the simple reality where "i love you" is enough. yes, that bad. i am sorry for falling so hard. no, i am actually not sorry. lol not even close to apologising. i'm enjoying this high too much for my own good. it's like a drug where neither rehab nor a doctor can help. no one. not even God can help me cushion my addict. yes, you are like my drug. i cannot ever recover. and i'm not sorry. time
11.11 - make a wish.it's a big fat four and in less than an hour, a five. seventeenth
17thafter last tuesday's night, we shifted somewhere somehow. but still we are holding on as tightly wound as we can. we are so far away. i cant help but wonder can we make it? u said do we need happiness in our life. yes of course we do need it. or else why am i still here? would u prefer me being with u and not being happy? then i'd much rather not be with u. i am only staying for the happiness i feel. "make me feel, make me feel, make me feel your love." - so anyway, things have been alright. school. work. met the bestfriend uzir aka rob about 4-5 days ago. went to have my fav mee soto at chinatown! yum yum!!! lol we had fun lol pretending to be tourists singing hokkien songs playing in the chinese shops...i think i was the only one singing it while rob merely did his version of chinamen. "waarrsharrrsharr" lol then i went off to work while he met up his friends. been so long since i met sugar lyn. we used to meet like almost everyday for about a year i think cos we were both working around the same area... n like got sick of each other LOL i do miss her but she's hard at work and if she's free i know she'd rather spent it with her family...or bf lol hey every girl is the same so i do understand =) (WHITE SHEETS AHEM AHEM ALL THE WAY NOT HALFWAY AHEM AHEM) lol i know she would so laugh at this... but yeah, blossom misses u buttercup. fee the cousin aka bubbles, just got a job which is good for her so she wont like emo so much. lol i do miss her. everytime meet confirm both go crazy. LOL halfway mcm rainbow. i miss penyet with her... oh yeahhh met my old primary school bestfriend izmariani. FINALLY WE WENT TO ROTI JOHN AT SPIZE!!! i have been wanting to go there like in months... she said i have changed lol maybe i used to be too nerdy. lol ok i wanna go spize again...hahahah all the sadness of a jurong girl craving for changi nasi lemak garrets in tamp roti john at simpang mee soto haig road. haiz... lol so june is a big good month. =) hehehehe... on that note, its time to COD! =D heehee... lets get that AK47! xoxo - ps : i miss atlantis. |