finally.
these latest events that have been happening around me have caused me scars that's left me traumatised. i have exhausted all means of my life lines and i am imminently left with no choices. at all.

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and so, begins my thursday morning, a huge sense of dread is hanging over myself. i realised that i have sunk deeper into this abyss of self hatred for myself.

i also realised that i am left with no other options but to walk away. and i think i will do that. maybe not in this life. God willing, we will meet again someday. if i am with someone else, so be it, but my heart beats silently for you.

dear God, this song that plays within me, please let me listen to it for the rest of my life even if i am walking on a different path.

now i can close my eyes and finally shut down. =)